So it's done. The switch was made and there is no going back. My handle being gbright1 is over, enter the Era of the Cosmic Empress.
For those that missed the previous Journal several years ago about gbright1 here is the quick why I chose that name. I read Ender's Game in 8th grade(Story Spoilers ahead). YEAH, who's ready for the movie? Anyways, in the later books, there is a character whose father refers to her as the Glorious bright one. She and her father have been genetically altered by the center government to keep them in check. They end up with sever compulsion disorders. This character has to keep her hands clean and trace lines in floor boards. The characters themselves believe that it's a show that God has chosen them for a greater cause. When the truth was revealed to her she decided to dismiss it and continue to think that it was God that had chosen her and she was special.
Second part of this choice: I was brought up Mormon. There are so many confining social aspects of being raised in any religion. Though they claim you have a choice in selecting religion, the end choice has to be Mormon. It's like giving the answer while asking a question. As a human you are allowed not to believe, but there are social implication to leaving the church. That is loss of family connection. Making people like your mom super sad. It sucks a lot, because they really aren't open to you not believing, despite emphasizing that it is your choice. The ultimate loop hole is for them to say, "oh you just need to pray about it again." Or "God doesn't think you're ready yet." Or the worst one. "You have to show your faith before it will be revealed to you." That last one is so stupidly cyclic. In order for you to believe the religion is true you have to already believe it.
So think on some level, and me choosing this name, was somehow acknowledging at a young age that I didn't believe. But I also on some level understood, as a member of my parents' house hold I couldn't not believe. So it was a choice to dismiss my doubts and stick with it. I was just like the Glorious Bright One and so the name suited me.
When I debated changing it a few years ago, someone suggested that I give it new meaning. The meaning I found in it was "bright." One of my favorest compliments to me of all time is my friend telling me "Some stars shine a little brighter." That meant a lot because I stood out. Let's face it we all like being better, out shining others. So that worked. But the old meaning is too engrained.
So that same friends challenged me. "Who are you now? What defines you?" I still love the stars. I love outerspace. I want to travel there one day. I had to have a reference to that. What is space? The Cosmos. So then looking at my cosplay, the largest theme I can see is royalty. I like to cosplay queens and princesses. Makes me feel pretty.
Then it was all about finding a combination that sounded cool and that wasn't already taken.
So I now present to you, my current self Cosmic-Empress.
Thanks for reading! And thanks for continuing to watch. I hope I'll have a lot more Cosplay to share that will blow your mind.
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